Fearfully & wonderfully made

The saying one In a million what does it speak to you ? I always thought it meant a man choosing me out of room full of other people . I feel God does that with each and everyone of us . The Bible says Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”

Can you imagine being chosen right from your mother’s womb . God is perfect and his plans a perfectly made that makes us perfectly made . If you come from a broken family , from not being the prettiest in the crowd , or even just not being able to fit in God knows you to the most deepest depths of your heart & he appointed you before you could even speak . I know for me having a baby at 16 made me stick out of the crowd I never felt like I could fit in after that , but I was perfectly made for his army not the worlds . He’s a crazy limitless God and he waits till we are so uncomfortable and receive our break through . He’s a patient God he waits for us to come to him . I don’t know about you but I’m tired of being comfortable of being content with the things that aren’t happening in my life . He saw past my brokenness, past my wounds & rose me up from the dead , the old me is gone & the new me is standing tall & high I serve the most highest King a prince of peace . He’s strength was perfect in my brokenness!! You’re loved , you’re cherished , you’re chosen !! How many times have you heard that ??

Being lost brings nothing but fear , fear derived from brokenness !! Brokenness brings anxiety,depression.. lets break these chains , so our following generations & theirs don’t have to !!

Let’s live by faith !! With praise , joy , excitement !! Living a Loved filled life a chosen life , the life God chose for me not the world !!

2 Timothy 1:7

God hasn’t haven me a spirit of fear but of power , love & sound of mind .

Gods Love

Love conquers fear .God doesn’t give us fear . God wants us to feel joy , praise importantly his Love for us .Healing after a traumatic experience can be hard . If you’ve been abused physically, mentally, emotionally or raped you know how it feels to be empty or kind of like you’re missing a piece from you something you may never recover from . I lost my innocence at a young age to someone close to my family after that I never felt whole or even close to it . I remember never feeling like a child after that . Like a piece of my heart had been shattered never have I spoken about this to anyone but God . Keeping your wounds hidden can lead to an everlasting darkness that hinders inside you . The enemy uses all those things to make you feel unworthy or not pure in a sense . Truth is God has delivered us from all the pain so if he can see past the pain why can’t we ? Here’s an example when I was a couple months pregnant I was sexually abused by the man who claimed to love me . I never saw past that I just thought it was okay for it to happen because it had already happened once before . The Lord got me through that and helped me heal from that . Living in a state of mind where you act as the victim to every scenario will not get us anywhere in life but in the same type of darkness we once were in . Along the years I learned to forget but I never truly forgave my abusers till years after that . Forgiving the once who hurt us plays a big role in our healing . It hold bitterness and guilt or the what if’s? Truth is nothing you would’ve done different could’ve changed the situation but forgiveness and opening those wounds does . Years from then I lived a happy life my ex husband showed me God and taught me about God . Little did I know I would need God more then ever . I was abused sexually & physically by the one who got me close to the righteous one . I remember blaming God for this asking him why he would let my husband do that ? I got closer to things in the world and let the pain consume me I figured it would go away just like the other two times did . I slowly started hating myself feeling useless and unworthy . How can someone who claimed to love me take a piece of me ? The part where I get to decide what happens. I felt as if I had no authority. God is a good God . Now I know that . He never let me walk alone I just had to let him in . Once I let him in all places in my heart even the real painful once he restored me from them . I learned my value . I learned to love and let other people in my life without contemplating my choice . Replace the guilt with praise and he will restore your pain with joy . God loves us so much he restores us from all pain loves us through the pain and gets rid of the pain .

I know I’ve shared this verse with you guys before but this is a verse we should all remember.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Replace love with God . God is all of those and more .

Isaiah 12

I will praise you, Lord.

Although you were angry with me,

your anger has turned away

and you have comforted me.

2Surely God is my salvation;

I will trust and not be afraid.

The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense a ;

he has become my salvation.”

3With joy you will draw water